Saturday, October 13, 2007
hmm. sth realli bothers me. i noe i hv been treating u nt realli gd during camp. coz of sth happen tat realli start to make me feel uneasy. i don tink i was in the wrong. i was suppose to b angry. yet,i only angry for a while. though i was angry,i cant bring myself to realli b angry wif u for too long. instead of angry,i tink sad was more. ur words did hurt me. i was sad. almost cry tat day. but i manage nt to tink abt it n force myself to slp. i donno use wat kind of feelings n expressions to face u the nx day. true enough. the nx morning,nv talk to me. shld i start the first step. i don like it. i alway don like to take the initiative. in the past,wif sec frenz,i hv no choice. coz dey wont take the first step. i hv to n i m tired of kp doing tat. during campfire,u talk to me first. but tat time i was worried n angry abt my grp performance. so nv realli bother. i donno whether my actions hv hurt u tat time. i don mean it. realli. i'm so sry abt tat. promise to slp tgt on sec day of camp. but nv. i don dare to tink anymore. i thought we will b even closer. but did we? i don tink so. will it b tat we will bcum strangers? i don wan tat to happen. once i treat someone as impt fren. small thing tat happen wuld b able to make me mood swing. is jus tat i take it TOO IMPT le. i m like tat. don wish to change coz i treasure frenz alot. i do expect the same fro dem. but is impossible. alway landed wif disappointment. i m tired of tat. so nw i don expect le. dis way,i believe i will b happier. as i said i wan a betta life. i will tink of ways to make myself feel betta. my new way of living. yes,i wont expect anymore.. .. .. .. ..
The end. x ; *
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